作者:阿道司·赫胥黎
|类型:都市·校园
|更新时间:2019-10-08 10:03
|本章字节:13212字
ar,science–youseemohavepaidafairlyhighpriceforyourhappiness,“saidhesavage,whenheywerealone“anyhingelse?”
“well,religion,ofcourse,”repliedheconroller“hereusedobesomehingcalledgod–beforehenineyears’warbuiwasforgeing;youknowallabougod,isuppose”
“well…”hesavagehesiaedhewouldhavelikedosaysomehingabousoliude,abounigh,abouhemesalyingpaleunderhemoon,abouheprecipice,heplungeinoshadowydarkness,aboudeahhewouldhavelikedospeak;buherewerenowordsnoeveninshakespeare
heconroller,meanwhile,hadcrossedoheohersideofheroomandwasunlockingargesafeseinohewallbeweenhebookshelvesheheavydoorswungopenrummaginginhedarknesswihin,“i’sasubjec,”hesaid,“hahasalwayshadagreaineresforme”hepulledouahickbckvolume“you’veneverreadhis,forexample”
hesavageooki“heholybible,conainingheoldandnewesamens,”hereadaloudfromheilepage
“norhis”iwasasmallbookandhadlosiscover
“heimiaionofchris”
“norhis”hehandedouanohervolume
“hevarieiesofreligiousexperiencebywilliamjames”
“andi’vegoplenymore,”musaphamondconinued,resuminghissea“awholecollecionofpornographicoldbooksgodinhesafeandfordonheshelves”hepoinedwihaughohisavowedlibrary–oheshelvesofbooks,herackfullofreadingmachinebobbinsandsoundrackrolls
“buifyouknowabougod,whydon’youellhem?”askedhesavageindignanly“whydon’yougivehemhesebooksabougod?”
“forhesamereasonaswedon’givehemohello:hey’reold;hey’reabougodhundredsofyearsagonoabougodnow”
“bugoddoesn’change”
“mendo,hough”
“whadifferencedoeshamake?”
“allhedifferenceinheworld,”saidmusaphamondhegoupagainandwalkedohesafe“herewasamancalledcardinalnewman,”hesaid“acardinal,”heexcimedparenheically,“wasakindofarchcommuniysongser”
“‘ipandulph,offairmin,cardinal’i’vereadabouheminshakespeare”
“ofcourseyouhavewell,asiwassaying,herewasamancalledcardinalnewmanah,here’shebook”hepullediou“andwhilei’mabouii’llakehisoooi’sbyamancalledmainedebiranhewasaphilosopher,ifyouknowwhahawas”
“amanwhodreamsoffewerhingshanhereareinheavenandearh,”saidhesavagepromply
“quiesoi’llreadyouoneofhehingshediddreamofinamomenmeanwhile,lisenowhahisoldarchcommuniysongsersaid”heopenedhebookahepcemarkedbyaslipofpaperandbeganoread“‘wearenoourownanymorehanwhawepossessisourownwedidnomakeourselves,weca
obesupremeoverourselveswearenoourownmaserswearegod’sproperyisinoourhappinesshusoviewhemaer?isianyhappinessoranycomfor,oconsiderhaweareourown?imaybehoughsobyheyoungandprosperoushesemayhinkiagreahingohaveeveryhing,asheysuppose,heirownway–odependonnoone–ohaveohinkofnohingouofsigh,obewihouheirksomenessofconinualacknowledgmen,coninualprayer,coninualreferenceofwhaheydoohewillofanoherbuasimegoeson,hey,asallmen,willfindhaindependencewasnomadeforman–haiisanu
auralsae–willdoforawhile,buwillnocarryusonsafelyoheend…’”musaphamondpaused,pudownhefirsbookand,pickingupheoher,urnedoverhepages“akehis,forexample,”hesaid,andinhisdeepvoiceoncemorebeganoread:“‘amangrowsold;hefeelsinhimselfharadicalsenseofweakness,oflislessness,ofdiscomfor,whichaccompaniesheadvanceofage;and,feelinghus,imagineshimselfmerelysick,lullinghisfearswihhenoionhahisdisressingcondiionisdueosomeparicurcause,fromwhich,asfromanillness,hehopesorecovervainimaginings!hasicknessisoldage;andahorriblediseaseiisheysayhaiishefearofdeahandofwhacomesaferdeahhamakesmenurnoreligionasheyadvanceinyearsbumyownexperiencehasgivenmeheconvicionha,quieaparfromanysucherrorsorimaginings,hereligioussenimenendsodevelopaswegrowolder;odevelopbecause,ashepassionsgrowcalm,ashefancyandsensibiliiesarelessexciedandlessexciable,ourreasonbecomeslessroubledinisworking,lessobscuredbyheimages,desiresanddisracions,inwhichiusedobeabsorbed;whereupongodemergesasfrombehindacloud;oursoulfeels,sees,urnsowardshesourceofallligh;urnsnaurallyandineviably;fornowhaallhagaveoheworldofsensaionsislifeandcharmshasbegunoleakawayfromus,nowhaphenomenalexisenceisnomorebolseredupbyimpressionsfromwihinorfromwihou,wefeelheneedoleanonsomehinghaabides,somehinghawillneverpyusfalse–arealiy,anabsolueandeversingruhyes,weineviablyurnogod;forhisreligioussenimenisofisnauresopure,sodelighfulohesoulhaexperiencesi,haimakesupousforallouroherlosses’”
musaphamondshuhebookandleanedbackinhischair“oneofhenumeroushingsinheavenandearhhahesephilosophersdidn’dreamabouwashis”(hewavedhishand),“us,hemodernworld‘youcanonlybeindependenofgodwhileyou’vegoyouhandprosperiy;independencewon’akeyousafelyoheend’well,we’venowgoyouhandprosperiyrighupoheendwhafollows?evidenly,hawecanbeindependenofgod‘hereligioussenimenwillcompensaeusforallourlosses’buherearen’anylossesforusocompensae;religioussenimenissuperfluousandwhyshouldwegohuningforasubsiueforyouhfuldesires,whenyouhfuldesiresneverfail?asubsiuefordisracions,whenwegoonenjoyingallheoldfooleriesoheverys?whaneedhaveweofreposewhenourmindsandbodiesconinueodelighinaciviy?ofconsoion,whenwehavesoma?ofsomehingimmovable,whenhereishesocialorder?”
“henyouhinkhereisnogod?”
“no,ihinkherequieprobablyisone”
“henwhy?…”