作者:阿道司·赫胥黎
|类型:都市·校园
|更新时间:2019-10-08 10:03
|本章字节:12552字
hedoorwasajar;heyenered“john!”
fromhebahroomcameanunpleasanandcharacerisicsound
“ishereanyhinghemaer?”helmholzcalled
herewasnoanswerheunpleasansoundwasrepeaed,wice;herewassilence
hen,wihaclickhebahroomdooropenedand,verypale,hesavageemerged“isay,”helmholzexcimedsoliciously,“youdolookill,john!”“didyoueasomehinghadidn’agreewihyou?”askedbernard
hesavagenodded“iaecivilizaion”
“wha?”
“ipoisonedme;iwasdefiledandhen,”headded,inalowerone,“iaemyownwickedness”
“yes,buwhaexacly?…imean,jusnowyouwere…”
“nowiampurified,”saidhesavage“idranksomemusardandwarmwaer”
heoherssaredahiminasonishmen“doyoumeanosayhayouweredoingionpurpose?”askedbernard
“ha’showheindiansalwayspurifyhemselves”hesadownand,sighing,passedhishandacrosshisforehead“ishallresforafewminues,”hesaid“i’mraherired”
“well,i’mnosurprised,”saidhelmholzaferasilence,“we’vecomeosaygoodbye,”hewenoninanoherone“we’reoffomorrowmorning”
“yes,we’reoffomorrow,”saidbernardonwhosefacehesavageremarkedanewexpressionofdeerminedresignaion“andbyheway,john,”heconinued,leaningforwardinhischairandyingahandonhesavage’sknee,“iwanosayhowsorryiamaboueveryhinghahappenedyeserday”heblushed“howashamed,”hewenon,inspieofheunseadinessofhisvoice,“howreally…”
hesavagecuhimshorand,akinghishand,affecionaelypressedi
“helmholzwaswonderfulome,”bernardresumed,aferalilepause“ifihadn’beenforhim,ishould…”
“now,now,”helmholzproesed
herewasasilenceinspieofheirsadness–becauseofi,even;forheirsadnesswashesympomofheirloveforoneanoher–hehreeyoungmenwerehappy
“iwenoseeheconrollerhismorning,”saidhesavageas
“whafor?”
“oaskifimighn’gooheisndswihyou”
“andwhadidhesay?”askedhelmholzeagerly
hesavageshookhishead“hewouldn’leme”
“whyno?”
“hesaidhewanedogoonwihheexperimenbui’mdamned,”hesavageadded,wihsuddenfury,“i’mdamnedifi’llgoonbeingexperimenedwihnoforallheconrollersinheworldlshallgoawayomorrowoo”
“buwhere?”heohersaskedinunison
hesavageshruggedhisshoulders“anywhereidon’caresolongasicanbealone”
fromguildfordhedownlinefollowedheweyvalleyogodalming,hen,overmilfordandwiley,proceededohaslemereandonhroughpeersfieldowardsporsmouhroughlyparalleloi,heuplinepassedoverworplesden,ongham,puenham,elseadandgrayshobeweenhehog’sbackandhindheadherewerepoinswherehewolineswerenomorehansixorsevenkilomeresaparhedisancewasoosmallforcarelessflyers–paricurlyanighandwhenheyhadakenhalfagrammeoomuchherehadbeenaccidensseriousonesihadbeendecidedodeflecheuplineafewkilomeresohewesbeweengrayshoandonghamfourabandonedairlighhousesmarkedhecourseofheoldporsmouholondonroadheskiesabovehemweresilenanddeserediwasoverselborne,bordonandfarnhamhahehelicopersnowceaselesslyhummedandroared
hesavagehadchosenashishermiageheoldlighhousewhichsoodonhecresofhehillbeweenpuenhamandelseadhebuildingwasofferroconcreeandinexcellencondiion–almosoocomforablehesavagehadhoughwhenhefirsexploredhepce,almosoocivilizedlyluxurioushepacifiedhisconsciencebypromisinghimselfacompensainglyharderselfdiscipline,purificaionshemorecompleeandhoroughhisfirsnighinhehermiagewas,deliberaely,asleeplessonehespenhehoursonhiskneespraying,nowohaheavenfromwhichheguilycudiushadbeggedforgiveness,nowinzu?ioawonawilona,nowojesusandpookong,nowohisownguardiananimal,heeaglefromimeoimehesrechedouhisarmsashoughhewereonhecross,andheldhemhushroughlongminuesofanachehagraduallyincreasedillibecamearemulousandexcruciaingagony;heldhem,involunarycrucifixion,whileherepeaed,hroughclenchedeeh(heswea,meanwhile,pouringdownhisface),“oh,forgiveme!oh,makemepure!oh,helpmeobegood!”againandagain,illhewasonhepoinoffainingfromhepain
whenmorningcame,hefelhehadearnedherighoinhabihelighhouse;ye,evenhoughheresillwasgssinmosofhewindows,evenhoughheviewfromhepformwassofineforheveryreasonwhyhehadchosenhelighhousehadbecomealmosinsanlyareasonforgoingsomewhereelsehehaddecidedoliveherebecauseheviewwassobeauiful,because,fromhisvanagepoin,heseemedobelookingouonoheincarnaionofadivinebeingbuwhowasheobepamperedwihhedailyandhourlysighofloveliness?whowasheobelivinginhevisiblepresenceofgod?allhedeservedoliveinwassomefilhysy,someblindholeinhegroundsiffandsillachingaferhislongnighofpain,buforhaveryreasoninwardlyreassured,heclimbedupohepformofhisower,helookedouoverhebrighsunriseworldwhichhehadregainedherighoinhabionhenorhheviewwasboundedbyhelongchalkridgeofhehog’sback,frombehindwhoseeasernexremiyroseheowersofhesevenskyscraperswhichconsiuedguildfordseeinghem,hesavagemadeagrimace;buhewasobecomereconciledohemincourseofime;foranighheywinuedgailywihgeomericalconselions,orelse,floodlighed,poinedheirluminousfingers(wihagesurewhosesignificancenobodyinengndbuhesavagenowundersood)solemnlyowardsheplumblessmyseriesofheaven