MYRELATIONS

作者:查尔斯·兰姆

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类型:都市·校园

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更新时间:2019-10-06 20:36

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本章字节:22868字

iamarrivedahapoinoflife,awhichamanmayaccouniablessing,asiisasinguriy,ifhehaveeiherofhisparenssurvivingihavenohafeliciy——andsomeimeshinkfeelinglyofapassageinbrowneschrisianmorals,wherehespeaksofamanhahahlivedsixyorsevenyyearsinheworld”insuchapassofime,”hesays,”amanmayhaveacloseapprehensionwhaiisobeforgoen,whenhehahlivedofindnonewhocouldrememberhisfaher,orscarcelyhefriendsofhisyouh,andmasensiblyseewihwhaafacei


olongimeoblivionwilllookuponhimself”


ihadanaun,adearandgoodoneshewasonewhomsingleblessednesshadsouredoheworldsheofenusedosay,haiwasheonlyhinginiwhichsheloved;and,whenshehoughiwasquiingi,shegrievedovermewihmohersearsaparialiyquiesoexclusivemyreasonca


oalogeherapproveshewasfrommorningillnighporingovergoodbooks,anddevoionalexercisesherfavourievolumeswerehomaskempis,insanhopesransion;andaromancaholicprayerbook,wihhemainsandplinesregurlysedown,——ermswhichiwasahaimeooyoungoundersandshepersisedinreadinghem,alhoughadmonisheddailyconcerningheirpapisicalendency;andwenochurcheverysabbah,asagoodproesanshoulddohesewereheonlybooksshesudied;hough,ihink,aoneperiodofherlife,sheoldme,shehadreadwihgreasaisfacionheadvenuresofanunforunaeyoungnoblemanfindinghedoorofhechapelinessexsreeopenoneday——iwasinheinfancyofhaheresy——shewenin,likedhesermon,andhema


erofworship,andfrequenediainervalssomeimeafershecamenofordocrinalpoins,andnevermissedhemwihsomelileasperiiesinherconsiuion,whichihaveabovehineda,shewasaseadfas,friendlybeing,andafineoldchrisianshewasawomanofsrongsense,andashrewdmind——exraordinaryaareparee;oneofhefewoccasionsofherbreakingsilence——elseshedidnomuchvaluewiheonlysecuremploymenirememberohaveseenherengagedin,was,hespliingoffrenchbeans,anddroppingheminoachinabasinoffairwaerheodourofhoseendervegeablesohisdayesbackuponmysense,redolenofsoohingrecollecionscerainlyiishemosdelicaeofculinaryoperaions


maleauns,assomebodycallshem,ihadnone——orememberbyheunclessideimaybesaidohavebeenbornanorphanbroher,orsiser,ineverhadany——oknowhemasiser,ihink,hashouldhavebeenelizabeh,diedinbohourinfancieswhaafor,orwhaacare,mayinohavemissedinher!——buihavecousins,sprinkledabouinherfordshire——besideswo,wihwhomihavebeenallmylifeinhabisofheclosesinimacy,andwhomimayermcousinsparexcellencehesearejamesandbridgeeliaheyareolderhanmyselfbywelve,anden,years;andneiherofhemseemsdisposed,inmaersofadviceandguidance,owaiveanyofheprerogaiveswhichprimogeniureconfersmayheyconinuesillinhesamemind;andwhenheyshallbesevenyfive,andsevenyhree,yearsold(ica


osparehemsooner),persisinreaingmeinmygrandclimacericpreciselyasasripling,oryoungerbroher!


jamesisaninexplicablecousinnaurehahheruniies,whichnoeverycriiccanperae;or,ifwefeel,weca


oexpinhemhepenofyorick,andofnonesincehis,couldhavedrawnjeenire——hosefineshandianlighsandshades,whichmakeuphissoryimuslimpaferinmypooraniheicalma


er,ashefaeshavegivenmegraceandalenjfhen——oheeyeofamonobserveraleas——seemehmadeupofconradicoryprinciples——hegenuinechildofimpulse,hefrigidphilosopherofprudence——hephlegmofmycousinsdocrineisinvariablyawarwihhisemperamen,whichishighsanguinewihalwayssomefirenewprojecinhisbrain,jeishesysemaicopponenofi


ovaion,andcrierdownofeveryhinghahasnosoodheesofageandexperimenwihahundredfinenoionschasingoneanoherhourlyinhisfancy,heissarledaheleasapproachoheromanicinohers;and,deerminedbyhisownsenseineveryhing,mendsyouoheguidanceofmonsenseonalloccasions——wihaouchofheeccenricinallwhichhedoes,orsays,heisonlyanxioushayoushouldnomiyourselfbydoinganyhingabsurdorsinguronmyonceleingslipaable,haiwasnofondofacerainpopurdish,hebeggedmeaanyraenoosayso——forheworldwouldhinkmemadhedisguisesapassionaefondnessforworksofhighar(whereofhehahamassedachoicecollecion),underhepreexofbuyingonlyoselgain——hahisenhusiasmmaygivenoencouragemenoyoursye,ifiwereso,whydoeshapieceofender,pasoraldominichinohangsillbyhiswall?——isheballofhissighmuchmoredearohim?——orwhapicuredealercanalklikehim?


whereasmankindingenerareobservedowarpheirspecuiveconclusionsohebenofheirindividualhumours,hisheoriesaresureobeindiamericalopposiionohisconsiuionheiscourageousascharlesofsweden,uponinsinc;charyofhisperson,uponprinciple,asaravellingquaker——hehasbeenpreachingupome,allmylife,hedocrineofbowingohegrea——henecessiyofforms,andma


er,oamansgeingoninheworldhehimselfneveraimsaeiher,haicandiscover,——andhasaspiri,hawouldsanduprighinhepresenceofhechamofararyiispleasanohearhimdiscourseofpaience——exollingiasherueswisdom——andoseehimduringhessevenminueshahisdi


erisgeingreadynaureneverranupinherhaseamorereslesspieceofworkmanshiphanwhenshemouldedhisimpeuouscousin——andarneverurnedouamoreeboraeoraorhanhecandispyhimselfobe,uponhisfavourieopicofheadvanagesofquie,andconenednessinhesae,whaeverimaybe,hawearepcedinheisriumphanonhisheme,whenhehasyousafeinoneofhoseshorsageshaplyforhewesernroad,inaveryobsrucingma


er,ahefooofjohnmurrayssree——whereyougeinwheniisempy,andareexpecedowaiillhevehiclehahpleedherjusfreigh——aryinghreequarersofanhourosomepeoplehewondersayourfidgeiness,——”wherecouldwebebeerhanweare,hussiing,husconsuling?”——”prefers,forhispar,asaeofresolooion,”——wihaneyeallhewhileuponhecoachman——illengh,waxingouofallpaience,ayourwanofi,hebreaksouinoapaheicremonsranceahefellowfordeainingussolongoverheimewhichhehadprofessed,anddecresperemporily,ha”hegenlemaninhecoachisdeerminedogeou,ifhedoesnodriveonhainsan”


veryquickainveninganargumen,ordeecingasophisry,heisincapableofaendingyouinanychainofarguingindeedhemakeswildworkwihlogic;andseemsojumpamosadmirableconclusionsbysomeprocess,noaalkinoiconsonanlyenoughohis,hehahbeenheardodeny,uponcerainoccasions,hahereexisssuchafaculyaallinmanasreason;andwonderehhowmancamefirsohaveaconceiofi——enforcinghisnegaionwihallhemighofreasoningheismaserofhehassomespecuivenoionsagainsugher,andwillmainainhaughingisnonauralohim——whenperadvenurehenexmomenhislungsshallcrowlikechanicleerhesayssomeofhebeshingsinheworld——anddecrehhawiishisaversioniwashewhosaid,uponseeingheeonboysapyinheirgrounds——whaapiyohink,hahesefineingenuousdsinafewyearswilllbechangedinofrivolousmembersofparliamen!


hisyouhwasfiery,glowing,empesuous——andinagehediscoverehnosympomofcoolinghisishawhichiadmireinhimihaepeoplewhomeeimehalfwayiamfornopromisewihhaineviablespoilerwhilehelives,jewillakehisswing——idoesmegood,asiwalkowardshesreeofmydailyavocaion,onsomefinemaymorning,omeehimmarchinginaquieopposiedirecion,wihajollyhandsomepresence,andshiningsanguineface,haindicaessomepurchaseinhiseye——acude——orahobbima——formuchofhisenviableleisureisconsumedachrisies,andphillipss——orwhereno,opickuppicures,andsuchgaudsonheseoccasionshemoslysoppehme,oreadashorlecureonheadvanageapersonlikemepossessesabovehimself,inhavinghisimeoccupiedwihbusinesswhichhemusdo——assurehmehaheofenfeelsihangheavyonhishands——wisheshehadfewerholidays——andgoesoff——weswardho!——chaningaune,opallmall——perfeclyconvincedhahehasconvincedme——whileiproceedinmyopposiedirecionuneless


iispleasanagainoseehisprofessorofindifferencedoinghehonoursofhisnewpurchase,whenhehasfairlyhousediyoumusviewiineveryligh,illhehasfoundhebes——pcingiahisdisance,andaha,bualwayssuiinghefocusofyoursighohisownyoumusspyaihroughyourfingers,ocachheaerialperspecive——houghyouassurehimhaoyouhendscapeshowsmuchmoreagreeablewihouhaarificewobeohelucklesswigh,whodoesnoonlynorespondohisrapure,buwhoshoulddropanunseasonableinimaionofpreferringoneofhisaneriorbargainsohepresen!——hesisalwayshisbeshi——his”cynhiaofheminue”——as!howmanyamildmado


ahaveiknownoein——araphael!——keepisascendancyforafewbriefmoons——hen,aferceraininermedialdegradaions,fromhefrondrawingroomohebackgallery,henceohedarkparlour,adopedinurnbyeachofhecarracci,undersuccessiveloweringascripionsoffiliaion,mildlybreakingisfall——consignedoheobliviouslumberroom,goouasaluccagiordano,orpincarlomarai——whichhingswhenibeheldmusinguponhechancesandmuabiliiesoffaebelow,hahmademeoreflecuponhealeredcondiionofgreapersonages,orhawofulqueenofrichardhesecond——


seforhinpomp,


shecameadornedhiherlikesweemay


senbacklikehollowmassorshoresday


wihgrealoveforyou,jebahbualimiedsympahywihwhayoufeelordohelivesinaworldofhisown,andmakesslenderguessesawhapassesinyourmindheneverpierceshemarrowofyourhabishewillelnoldesablishedpygoer,hamrsuchaone,ofsoandso(namingoneofheheares),isaverylivelyedian——asapieceofnews!headverisedmebuheoherdayofsomepleasangreenneswhichhehadfoundouforme,knowingmeobeagreawalker,inmyownimmediaeviciniy——whohavehaunedheidenicalspoanyimehesewenyyears!——hehasnomuchrespecforhacssoffeelingswhichgoesbyhenameofsenimenalheapplieshedefiniionofrealevilobodilysufferingsexclusively——andrejecehallohersasimaginaryheisaffecedbyhesigh,orhebaresupposiion,ofacreaureinpain,oadegreewhichihaveneverwinessedouofwomankindaconsiuionacuenessohiscssofsufferingsmayinparaccounforhisheanimalribeinparicurheakehunderhisespecialproecionabrokenwindedorspurgalledhorseissureofindanadvocaeinhimanoverloadedassishisclienforeverheisheaposleohebruekind——heneverfailingfriendofhosewhohavenoocareforhemheconempionofalobserboiled,oreelsski


edalive,willwringhimso,ha”allforpiyhecoulddie”iwillakehesavourfromhispae,andheresfromhispillow,fordaysandnighswihheinensefeelingofhomascrkson,hewanedonlyheseadinessofpursui,anduniyofpurpose,ofha”rueyokefellowwihime,”ohaveeffecedasmuchforheanimal,ashebahdoneforhenegrocreaionbumyunconrolblecousinisbuimperfeclyformedforpurposeswhichdemandcooperaionheca


owaihisamelioraionpnsmusberipenedinadayforhisreasonhehascubuanequivocalfigureinbenevolensocieies,andbinaionsforhealleviaionofhumansufferingshiszealconsanlymakeshimoourun,andpuou,hiscoadjuorshehinksofrelieving,whileheyhinkofdebainghewasbckballedouofasocieyforhereliefof——,becausehefervorofhishumaniyoiledbeyondheformapprehension,andcreepingprocesses,ofhisassociaesishallwaysconsiderhisdisincionasapaenofnobiliyinheeliafamily!


doimenionheseseeminginconsisenciesosmilea,orupbraid,myuniquecousin?marry,heaven,andallgoodma


ers,andheundersandinghashouldbebeweenkinsfolk,forbid——wihallhesrangenessesofhissrangesofheelias——iwouldnohavehiminonejoorileoherhanheis;neiherwouldibarerorexchangemywildkinsmanforhemosexac,regur,andeverywayconsisenkinsmanbreahing


inmynex,reader,imayperhapsgiveyousomeaccounofmycousinbridge——ifyouarenoalreadysurfeiedwihcousins——andakeyoubyhehand,ifyouarewillingogowihus,onanexcursionwhichwemadeasummerorwosince,insearchofmorecousins


hroughhegreenpinsofpleasanherfordshire