作者:查尔斯·兰姆
|类型:都市·校园
|更新时间:2019-10-06 20:36
|本章字节:22868字
iamarrivedahapoinoflife,awhichamanmayaccouniablessing,asiisasinguriy,ifhehaveeiherofhisparenssurvivingihavenohafeliciy——andsomeimeshinkfeelinglyofapassageinbrowneschrisianmorals,wherehespeaksofamanhahahlivedsixyorsevenyyearsinheworld”insuchapassofime,”hesays,”amanmayhaveacloseapprehensionwhaiisobeforgoen,whenhehahlivedofindnonewhocouldrememberhisfaher,orscarcelyhefriendsofhisyouh,andmasensiblyseewihwhaafacei
olongimeoblivionwilllookuponhimself”
ihadanaun,adearandgoodoneshewasonewhomsingleblessednesshadsouredoheworldsheofenusedosay,haiwasheonlyhinginiwhichsheloved;and,whenshehoughiwasquiingi,shegrievedovermewihmohersearsaparialiyquiesoexclusivemyreasonca
oalogeherapproveshewasfrommorningillnighporingovergoodbooks,anddevoionalexercisesherfavourievolumeswerehomaskempis,insanhopesransion;andaromancaholicprayerbook,wihhemainsandplinesregurlysedown,——ermswhichiwasahaimeooyoungoundersandshepersisedinreadinghem,alhoughadmonisheddailyconcerningheirpapisicalendency;andwenochurcheverysabbah,asagoodproesanshoulddohesewereheonlybooksshesudied;hough,ihink,aoneperiodofherlife,sheoldme,shehadreadwihgreasaisfacionheadvenuresofanunforunaeyoungnoblemanfindinghedoorofhechapelinessexsreeopenoneday——iwasinheinfancyofhaheresy——shewenin,likedhesermon,andhema
erofworship,andfrequenediainervalssomeimeafershecamenofordocrinalpoins,andnevermissedhemwihsomelileasperiiesinherconsiuion,whichihaveabovehineda,shewasaseadfas,friendlybeing,andafineoldchrisianshewasawomanofsrongsense,andashrewdmind——exraordinaryaareparee;oneofhefewoccasionsofherbreakingsilence——elseshedidnomuchvaluewiheonlysecuremploymenirememberohaveseenherengagedin,was,hespliingoffrenchbeans,anddroppingheminoachinabasinoffairwaerheodourofhoseendervegeablesohisdayesbackuponmysense,redolenofsoohingrecollecionscerainlyiishemosdelicaeofculinaryoperaions
maleauns,assomebodycallshem,ihadnone——orememberbyheunclessideimaybesaidohavebeenbornanorphanbroher,orsiser,ineverhadany——oknowhemasiser,ihink,hashouldhavebeenelizabeh,diedinbohourinfancieswhaafor,orwhaacare,mayinohavemissedinher!——buihavecousins,sprinkledabouinherfordshire——besideswo,wihwhomihavebeenallmylifeinhabisofheclosesinimacy,andwhomimayermcousinsparexcellencehesearejamesandbridgeeliaheyareolderhanmyselfbywelve,anden,years;andneiherofhemseemsdisposed,inmaersofadviceandguidance,owaiveanyofheprerogaiveswhichprimogeniureconfersmayheyconinuesillinhesamemind;andwhenheyshallbesevenyfive,andsevenyhree,yearsold(ica
osparehemsooner),persisinreaingmeinmygrandclimacericpreciselyasasripling,oryoungerbroher!
jamesisaninexplicablecousinnaurehahheruniies,whichnoeverycriiccanperae;or,ifwefeel,weca
oexpinhemhepenofyorick,andofnonesincehis,couldhavedrawnjeenire——hosefineshandianlighsandshades,whichmakeuphissoryimuslimpaferinmypooraniheicalma
er,ashefaeshavegivenmegraceandalenjfhen——oheeyeofamonobserveraleas——seemehmadeupofconradicoryprinciples——hegenuinechildofimpulse,hefrigidphilosopherofprudence——hephlegmofmycousinsdocrineisinvariablyawarwihhisemperamen,whichishighsanguinewihalwayssomefirenewprojecinhisbrain,jeishesysemaicopponenofi
ovaion,andcrierdownofeveryhinghahasnosoodheesofageandexperimenwihahundredfinenoionschasingoneanoherhourlyinhisfancy,heissarledaheleasapproachoheromanicinohers;and,deerminedbyhisownsenseineveryhing,mendsyouoheguidanceofmonsenseonalloccasions——wihaouchofheeccenricinallwhichhedoes,orsays,heisonlyanxioushayoushouldnomiyourselfbydoinganyhingabsurdorsinguronmyonceleingslipaable,haiwasnofondofacerainpopurdish,hebeggedmeaanyraenoosayso——forheworldwouldhinkmemadhedisguisesapassionaefondnessforworksofhighar(whereofhehahamassedachoicecollecion),underhepreexofbuyingonlyoselgain——hahisenhusiasmmaygivenoencouragemenoyoursye,ifiwereso,whydoeshapieceofender,pasoraldominichinohangsillbyhiswall?——isheballofhissighmuchmoredearohim?——orwhapicuredealercanalklikehim?
whereasmankindingenerareobservedowarpheirspecuiveconclusionsohebenofheirindividualhumours,hisheoriesaresureobeindiamericalopposiionohisconsiuionheiscourageousascharlesofsweden,uponinsinc;charyofhisperson,uponprinciple,asaravellingquaker——hehasbeenpreachingupome,allmylife,hedocrineofbowingohegrea——henecessiyofforms,andma
er,oamansgeingoninheworldhehimselfneveraimsaeiher,haicandiscover,——andhasaspiri,hawouldsanduprighinhepresenceofhechamofararyiispleasanohearhimdiscourseofpaience——exollingiasherueswisdom——andoseehimduringhessevenminueshahisdi
erisgeingreadynaureneverranupinherhaseamorereslesspieceofworkmanshiphanwhenshemouldedhisimpeuouscousin——andarneverurnedouamoreeboraeoraorhanhecandispyhimselfobe,uponhisfavourieopicofheadvanagesofquie,andconenednessinhesae,whaeverimaybe,hawearepcedinheisriumphanonhisheme,whenhehasyousafeinoneofhoseshorsageshaplyforhewesernroad,inaveryobsrucingma
er,ahefooofjohnmurrayssree——whereyougeinwheniisempy,andareexpecedowaiillhevehiclehahpleedherjusfreigh——aryinghreequarersofanhourosomepeoplehewondersayourfidgeiness,——”wherecouldwebebeerhanweare,hussiing,husconsuling?”——”prefers,forhispar,asaeofresolooion,”——wihaneyeallhewhileuponhecoachman——illengh,waxingouofallpaience,ayourwanofi,hebreaksouinoapaheicremonsranceahefellowfordeainingussolongoverheimewhichhehadprofessed,anddecresperemporily,ha”hegenlemaninhecoachisdeerminedogeou,ifhedoesnodriveonhainsan”
veryquickainveninganargumen,ordeecingasophisry,heisincapableofaendingyouinanychainofarguingindeedhemakeswildworkwihlogic;andseemsojumpamosadmirableconclusionsbysomeprocess,noaalkinoiconsonanlyenoughohis,hehahbeenheardodeny,uponcerainoccasions,hahereexisssuchafaculyaallinmanasreason;andwonderehhowmancamefirsohaveaconceiofi——enforcinghisnegaionwihallhemighofreasoningheismaserofhehassomespecuivenoionsagainsugher,andwillmainainhaughingisnonauralohim——whenperadvenurehenexmomenhislungsshallcrowlikechanicleerhesayssomeofhebeshingsinheworld——anddecrehhawiishisaversioniwashewhosaid,uponseeingheeonboysapyinheirgrounds——whaapiyohink,hahesefineingenuousdsinafewyearswilllbechangedinofrivolousmembersofparliamen!
hisyouhwasfiery,glowing,empesuous——andinagehediscoverehnosympomofcoolinghisishawhichiadmireinhimihaepeoplewhomeeimehalfwayiamfornopromisewihhaineviablespoilerwhilehelives,jewillakehisswing——idoesmegood,asiwalkowardshesreeofmydailyavocaion,onsomefinemaymorning,omeehimmarchinginaquieopposiedirecion,wihajollyhandsomepresence,andshiningsanguineface,haindicaessomepurchaseinhiseye——acude——orahobbima——formuchofhisenviableleisureisconsumedachrisies,andphillipss——orwhereno,opickuppicures,andsuchgaudsonheseoccasionshemoslysoppehme,oreadashorlecureonheadvanageapersonlikemepossessesabovehimself,inhavinghisimeoccupiedwihbusinesswhichhemusdo——assurehmehaheofenfeelsihangheavyonhishands——wisheshehadfewerholidays——andgoesoff——weswardho!——chaningaune,opallmall——perfeclyconvincedhahehasconvincedme——whileiproceedinmyopposiedirecionuneless
iispleasanagainoseehisprofessorofindifferencedoinghehonoursofhisnewpurchase,whenhehasfairlyhousediyoumusviewiineveryligh,illhehasfoundhebes——pcingiahisdisance,andaha,bualwayssuiinghefocusofyoursighohisownyoumusspyaihroughyourfingers,ocachheaerialperspecive——houghyouassurehimhaoyouhendscapeshowsmuchmoreagreeablewihouhaarificewobeohelucklesswigh,whodoesnoonlynorespondohisrapure,buwhoshoulddropanunseasonableinimaionofpreferringoneofhisaneriorbargainsohepresen!——hesisalwayshisbeshi——his”cynhiaofheminue”——as!howmanyamildmado
ahaveiknownoein——araphael!——keepisascendancyforafewbriefmoons——hen,aferceraininermedialdegradaions,fromhefrondrawingroomohebackgallery,henceohedarkparlour,adopedinurnbyeachofhecarracci,undersuccessiveloweringascripionsoffiliaion,mildlybreakingisfall——consignedoheobliviouslumberroom,goouasaluccagiordano,orpincarlomarai——whichhingswhenibeheldmusinguponhechancesandmuabiliiesoffaebelow,hahmademeoreflecuponhealeredcondiionofgreapersonages,orhawofulqueenofrichardhesecond——
seforhinpomp,
shecameadornedhiherlikesweemay
senbacklikehollowmassorshoresday
wihgrealoveforyou,jebahbualimiedsympahywihwhayoufeelordohelivesinaworldofhisown,andmakesslenderguessesawhapassesinyourmindheneverpierceshemarrowofyourhabishewillelnoldesablishedpygoer,hamrsuchaone,ofsoandso(namingoneofheheares),isaverylivelyedian——asapieceofnews!headverisedmebuheoherdayofsomepleasangreenneswhichhehadfoundouforme,knowingmeobeagreawalker,inmyownimmediaeviciniy——whohavehaunedheidenicalspoanyimehesewenyyears!——hehasnomuchrespecforhacssoffeelingswhichgoesbyhenameofsenimenalheapplieshedefiniionofrealevilobodilysufferingsexclusively——andrejecehallohersasimaginaryheisaffecedbyhesigh,orhebaresupposiion,ofacreaureinpain,oadegreewhichihaveneverwinessedouofwomankindaconsiuionacuenessohiscssofsufferingsmayinparaccounforhisheanimalribeinparicurheakehunderhisespecialproecionabrokenwindedorspurgalledhorseissureofindanadvocaeinhimanoverloadedassishisclienforeverheisheaposleohebruekind——heneverfailingfriendofhosewhohavenoocareforhemheconempionofalobserboiled,oreelsski
edalive,willwringhimso,ha”allforpiyhecoulddie”iwillakehesavourfromhispae,andheresfromhispillow,fordaysandnighswihheinensefeelingofhomascrkson,hewanedonlyheseadinessofpursui,anduniyofpurpose,ofha”rueyokefellowwihime,”ohaveeffecedasmuchforheanimal,ashebahdoneforhenegrocreaionbumyunconrolblecousinisbuimperfeclyformedforpurposeswhichdemandcooperaionheca
owaihisamelioraionpnsmusberipenedinadayforhisreasonhehascubuanequivocalfigureinbenevolensocieies,andbinaionsforhealleviaionofhumansufferingshiszealconsanlymakeshimoourun,andpuou,hiscoadjuorshehinksofrelieving,whileheyhinkofdebainghewasbckballedouofasocieyforhereliefof——,becausehefervorofhishumaniyoiledbeyondheformapprehension,andcreepingprocesses,ofhisassociaesishallwaysconsiderhisdisincionasapaenofnobiliyinheeliafamily!
doimenionheseseeminginconsisenciesosmilea,orupbraid,myuniquecousin?marry,heaven,andallgoodma
ers,andheundersandinghashouldbebeweenkinsfolk,forbid——wihallhesrangenessesofhissrangesofheelias——iwouldnohavehiminonejoorileoherhanheis;neiherwouldibarerorexchangemywildkinsmanforhemosexac,regur,andeverywayconsisenkinsmanbreahing
inmynex,reader,imayperhapsgiveyousomeaccounofmycousinbridge——ifyouarenoalreadysurfeiedwihcousins——andakeyoubyhehand,ifyouarewillingogowihus,onanexcursionwhichwemadeasummerorwosince,insearchofmorecousins
hroughhegreenpinsofpleasanherfordshire