BARBARAS-----

作者:查尔斯·兰姆

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类型:都市·校园

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更新时间:2019-10-06 20:36

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本章字节:18734字

onhenoonofhe14hofnovember,1743or4,iforgewhichiwas,jusasheclockhadsruckone,barbaras——,wihheraccusomedpuncualiyascendedhelongramblingsaircase,wihawkwardinerposedndingpces,whichledoheoffice,orraherasorofboxwihadeskini,whereasahehenreasurerof(whafewofourreadersmayremember)heoldbahhearealloverheisndiwashecusom,andremainssoibelieveohisday,forhepyersoreceiveheirweeklysipendonhesaurdayiwasnomuchhabarbarahadocim


hislilemaidhadjuseneredherelevenhyear;buherimporansaionaheheare,asiseemedoher,wihhebenefiswhichshefeloaccruefromherpiousapplicaionofhersmallearnings,hadgivenanairofwomanhoodohersepsandoherbehaviouryouwouldhaveakenherohavebeenaleasfiveyearsolder


illerlyshehadmerelybeenemployedinchoruses,orwherechildrenwerewanedofilluphescenebuhemanager,observingadiligenceandadroinessinheraboveherage,hadforsomefewmonhspasinrusedoherheperformanceofwholeparsyoumayguessheselfconsequenceofhepromoedbarbarashehadalreadydrawnearsinyoungarhur;hadralliedrichardwihinfaninepeunceinhedukeofyorkandinherurnhadrebukedhapeuncewhenshewasprinceofwalesshewouldhavedoheelderchildinmoronspaheicalerpieceohelife;buasyehe”childreninhewood”wasno


longaferhislilegirlwasgrownanagedwoman,ihaveseensomeofhesesmallpars,eachmakingwoorhreepagesamos,copiedouinherudeshandofhehenpromper,whodoublessranscribedalilemorecarefullyandfairlyforhegrownupragedydiesofheesablishmenbusuchasheywere,bloedandscrawled,asforachildsuse,shekephemall;andinhezenihofheraferrepuaioniwasadelighfulsighobeholdhemboundupincosliesmorocco,eachsingle——eachsmallparmakingabook——wihfinecsps,gilspshed,&cshehadconscieniouslykephemasheyhadbeendeliveredoher;noablohadbeeneffacedoramperedwihheywerepreciousoherforheiraffecingremembrancingsheywereherprincipia,herrudimens;heelemenaryaoms;helilesepsbywhichshepressedforwardoperfecion”wha,”shewouldsay,”couldindianrubber,orapumicesone,havedoneforhesedarlings?”


iami


ohurryobeginmysory——indeedihavelileornooell——soiwilljusmenionanobservaionofhersco


ecedwihhaineresingime


nolongbeforeshediedihadbeendiscoursingwihheronhequaniyofrealpresenemoionwhichagrearagicperformerexperiencesduringacingivenuredohink,hahoughinhefirsinsancesuchpyersmushavepossessedhefeelingswhichheysopowerfullycalledupinohers,yebyfrequenrepeiionhosefeelingsmusbeedeadenedingreameasure,andheperformerrusohememoryofpasemoion,raherhanexpressapresenonesheindignanlyrepelledhenoion,hawiharulygrearagedianheoperaion,bywhichsucheffecswereproduceduponanaudience,couldeverdegradeiselfinowhawaspurelymechanicalwihmuchdelicacy,avoidingoinsanceinherselfexperience,sheoldme,hasolongagoaswhensheusedopyheparofhelilesonomrsporersisabelia,(ihinkiwas)whenhaimpressiveacresshasbeenbendingoverherinsomehearrendingcolloquy,shehasfelrealhoearsericklingfromher,which(ouseherpowerfulexpression)haveperfeclyscaldedherbackiamnoquiesosurehaiwasmrsporer;buiwassomegreaacressofhadayhenameisindifferen;buhefacofhescaldingearsimosdisinclyrememberiwasalwaysfondofhesocieyofpyers,andamnosurehaanimpedimeninmyspeech(whichcerainlykepmeouofhepulpi)evenmorehancerainpersonaldisqualificaions,whichareofengooverinhaprofession,didnoprevenmeaoimeoflifefromadopingiihavehadhehonour(imusevercalli)onceohavebeenadmiedoheeaableofmisskellyihavepyedaseriouswhiswihmrlisonihavechaedwihevergoodhumouredmrscharleskembleihaveconversedasfriendofriendwihheracplishedhusbandihavebeenindulgedwihacssicalconferencewihmacready;andwihasighofhepyerpicuregallery,amrmahewss,whenhekindowner,oremuneraemeformyloveofheoldacors(whomhelovessomuch)wenoveriwihme,supplyingohiscapialcollecion,whaaloheariscouldnogivehem——voice;andheirlivingmoionoldones,halffaded,ofdoddandparsons,andbaddeley,havelivedagainformeahisbiddingonlyedwinhecouldnoresoreomeihavesuppedwih——;buiamgrowingacoxb


asiwasabouosay——ahedeskofhehenreasurerofheoldbahheare——nodiamonds——presenedherselfhelilebarbaras


heparensofbarbarahadbeeninrepuablecircumsanceshefaherhadpracised,ibelieve,asanapohecaryinheownbuhispracicefromcauseswhichifeelmyowninfirmiyoosensiblyhawayoarraign——orperhapsfromhapureinfeliciywhichacpaniessomepeopleinheirwalkhroughlife,andwhichiisimpossibleoyahedoorofimprudence——wasnowreducedonohingheywereinfacinheveryeehofsarvaion,whenhemanager,whoknewandrespecedheminbeerdays,ookhelilebarbarainohispany


aheperiodimencedwih,herslenderearningswerehesolesupporofhefamily,includingwoyoungersisersimushrowaveiloversomemorifyingcircumsancesenoughosay,hahersaurdayspiancewasheonlychanceofasundays(generallyheironly)mealofmea


ohingiwillonlymenion,hainsomechildspar,whereinherhearicalcharacershewasosupoffaroasfowl(ojoyobarbara!)someicacor,whowasforhenighcaererforhisdainyinhemisguidedhumourofhispar,hrewoverhedishsuchaquaniyofsal(ogriefandpainofhearobarbara!)hawhenhecrammedaporionofiinohermouh,shewasobligedspueringlyorejeci;andwhawihshameofherillacedpar,andpainofreappeieamissingsuchadainy,herlilehearsobbedalmosobreaking,ilfloodofears,whichhewellfedspecaorswereoallyunableoprehend,mercifullyrelievedher


hiswashelilesarved,merioriousmaid,whosoodbeforeoldravenscrof,hereasurer,forhersaurdayspaymen


ravenscrofwasaman,ihaveheardmanyoldhearicalpeoplebesidesherselfsay,ofallmenleascalcuedforareasurerhehadnoheadforaccouns,paidawayarandom,kepscarceanybooks,andsummingupaheweeksend,ifhefoundhimselfapoundorsodeficien,bleshimselfhaiwasnoworse


nowbarbarasweeklysipendwasabarehalfguineabymisakehepoppedinoherhanda——wholeone


barbararippedaway


shewasenirelyunconsciousafirsofhemisake:godknows,ravenscrofwouldneverhavediscoveredi


buwhenshehadgodownohefirsofhoseuncouhndingpces,shebecamesensibleofanunusualweighofmealpressingherlilehand


nowmarkhedilemma


shewasbynaureagoodchildfromherparensandhoseabouhershehadimbibednoconraryinfluencebuhenheyhadaughhernohingpoormenssmokycabinsarenoalwaysporicoesofmoralphilosophyhislilemaidhadnoinsincoevil,buhenshemighbesaidohavenofixedprincipleshehadheardhonesymended,buneverdreamedofisapplicaionoherselfshehoughofiassomehingwhichconcernedgrownuppeople——menandwomenshehadneverknownempaion,orhoughofsparingresisanceagainsi


herfirsimpulsewasogobackoheoldreasurer,andexpinohimhisblunderhewasalreadysoconfusedwihage,besideanauralwanofpuncualiy,hashewouldhavehadsomedifficulyinmakinghimundersandishesawhainaninsanandheniwassuchabiofmoney!andhenheimageofargerallowanceofbuchersmeaonheirablenexdaycameacrossher,illherlileeyesglisened,andhermouhmoisenedbuhenmrravenscrofhadalwaysbeensogoodnaured,hadsoodherfriendbehindhescenes,andevenremendedherpromoionosomeofherlileparsbuagainheoldmanwasrepuedobeworhaworldofmoneyhewassupposedohavefifypoundsayearclearofheheareandhencamesaringuponherhefiguresofherlilesockinglessandshoelesssisersandwhenshelookedaherow


eawhiecoonsockings,whichhersiuaionahehearehadmadeiindispensableforhermoheroprovideforher,wihhardsrainingandpinchingfromhefamilysock,andhoughhowgdsheshouldbeocoverheirpoorfeewihhesame——andhowhenheycouldacpanyherorehearsals,whichheyhadhiherobeenprecludedfromdoing,byreasonofheirunfashionableaire——inhesehoughsshereachedhesecondndingpce——hesecond,imeanfromheop——forherewassilnoherleforaverse


nowviruesupporbarbara!


andhaneverfailingfrienddidsepin——forahamomenasrenghnoherown,ihaveheardhersay,wasrevealedoher——areasonabovereasoning——andwihouherownagency,asiseemed(forsheneverfelherfeeomove)shefoundherselfransporedbackoheindividualdeskshehadjusquied,andherhandinheoldhandofravenscrof,whoinsilenceookbackherefundedreasure,andwhohadbeensiing(goodman)insensibleohepseofminues,whichoherwereanxiousages;andfromhamomenadeeppeacefelluponherhear,andsheknewhequaliyofhonesy


ayearorwosunrepiningapplicaionoherprofessionbrigheneduphefee,andheprospecs,ofherlilesisers,sehewholefamilyuponheirlegsagain,andreleasedherfromhedifficulyofdiscussingmoraldogmasuponandingpce


ihaveheardhersay,haiwasasurprise,nomuchshorofmorificaionoher,oseehecoolnesswihwhichheoldmanpockeedhedifference,whichhadcausedhersuchmoralhroes


hisanecdoeofherselfihadinheyear1800,fromhemouhofheemrscrawford,hensixysevenyearsofage(shediedsoonafer);andohersrugglesuponhischildishoccasionihavesomeimesvenuredohinkherindebedforhapowerofrendinghehearinherepresenaionofconflicingemoions,forwhichinaferyearsshewasconsideredaslileinferior(ifaallsoinheparofdyrandolph)evenomrssiddons


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ameofhisdywassree,whichshechanged,bysuccessivemarriages,forhoseofdancer,barry,andcrawfordshewasmrscrawford,andahirdimeawidow,wheniknewher