作者:阿道司·赫胥黎
|类型:都市·校园
|更新时间:2019-10-06 11:38
|本章字节:8234字
bernardblusheduncomforably“yousee,”hesaid,mumblingandwihaveredeyes,“i’mraherdifferenfrommospeople,isupposeifonehappensobedecaneddifferen…”
“yes,ha’sjusi”heyoungmannodded“ifone’sdifferen,one’sboundobelonelyhey’rebeaslyoonedoyouknow,heyshumeouofabsoluelyeveryhing?whenheoherboysweresenouospendhenighonhemounains–youknow,whenyouhaveodreamwhichyoursacredanimalis–heywouldn’lemegowihheohers;heywouldn’ellmeanyofhesecresididibymyself,hough,”headded“didn’eaanyhingforfivedaysandhenwenouonenighaloneinohosemounainshere”hepoined
paronizingly,bernardsmiled“anddidyoudreamofanyhing?”heasked
heohernodded“buimusn’ellyouwha”hewassilenforalile;hen,inalowvoice,“once,”hewenon,“ididsomehinghanoneofheohersdid:isoodagainsarockinhemiddleofheday,insummer,wihmyarmsou,likejesusonhecross”
“whaonearhfor?”
“iwanedoknowwhaiwaslikebeingcrucifiedhanginghereinhesun…”
“buwhy?”
“why?well…”hehesiaed“becauseifelioughoifjesuscouldsandiandhen,ifonehasdonesomehingwrong…besides,iwasunhappy;hawasanoherreason”
“iseemsafu
ywayofcuringyourunhappiness,”saidbernardbuonsecondhoughshedecidedhaherewas,aferall,somesenseinibeerhanakingsoma…
“ifainedaferaime,”saidheyoungman“felldownonmyfacedoyouseehemarkwhereicumyself?”helifedhehickyellowhairfromhisforeheadhescarshowed,paleandpuckered,onhisrighemple
bernardlooked,andhenquickly,wihalileshudder,averedhiseyeshiscondiioninghadmadehimnosomuchpiifulasprofoundlysqueamishhemeresuggesionofillnessorwoundswasohimnoonlyhorrifying,buevenrepulsiveandraherdisgusinglikedir,ordeformiy,oroldagehasilyhechangedhesubjec
“iwonderifyou’dlikeocomebackolondonwihus?”heasked,makinghefirsmoveinacampaignwhosesraegyhehadbeensecrelyeboraingeversince,inhelilehouse,hehadreahzedwhohe“faher”ofhisyoungsavagemusbe“wouldyoulikeha?”
heyoungman’sfaceliup“doyoureallymeani?”
“ofcourse;ificangepermission,hais”
“lindaoo?”
“well…”hehesiaeddoubfullyharevolingcreaure!no,iwasimpossibleunless,unless…isuddenlyoccurredobernardhaherveryrevolingnessmighproveanenormousasse“buofcourse!”hecried,makingupforhisfirshesiaionswihanexcessofnoisycordialiy
heyoungmandrewadeepbreah“ohinkishouldbecomingrue–whai’vedreamofallmylifedoyourememberwhamirandasays?”
“who’smiranda?”
buheyoungmanhadevidenlynoheardhequesion“owonder!”hewassaying;andhiseyesshone,hisfacewasbrighlyflushed“howmanygoodlycreauresareherehere!howbeaueousmankindis!”heflushsuddenlydeepened;hewashinkingoflenina,ofanangelinbolegreenviscose,lusrouswihyouhandskinfood,plump,benevolenlysmilinghisvoicefalered“obravenewworld,”hebegan,hensuddenlyinerrupedhimself;hebloodhadlefhischeeks;hewasaspaleaspaper
“areyoumarriedoher?”heasked
“amiwha?”
“marriedyouknow–foreverheysay‘forever’inheindianwords;ican’bebroken”
“ford,no!”bernardcouldn’helpughing
johnalsoughed,buforanoherreason–ughedforpurejoy
“obravenewworld,”herepeaed“obravenewworldhahassuchpeopleinile’ssaraonce”
“youhaveamospeculiarwayofalkingsomeimes,”saidbernard,saringaheyoungmaninperplexedasonishmen“and,anyhow,hadn’youbeerwaiillyouacuallyseehenewworld?”