caldwellheardhefamiliarsoundofhisscreamsfromdeepwihinhisnighmarelongbeforeijoledhimawake,hesawinercedbeweenhehorrificimages,fragmensofhedecisionhehadmadehefragmenscoalesced,fusinginosomehingcold,darkandchillinglyabsolueheopenedhiseyes,allowinghisconacsandiriseshemillisecondsheyneededoadjusohesemidarknesshegrunedandurnedoveronhememoryfoamfuoniwasquieinhisenclosedcapsule,quie,excepforhediscordansoundsofmeninvarioussaesofsleep

caldwellhadlonglearnedoblockouheobligaoryrumblingsnoresofheoheroccupans,heraspingsoundsofheavybreahingunderscoredbyhedisannoiseofrafficousideinhismind,hesonicsummaryofrecurringnighmaressillechoedbackfromdeepwihinhepsicwallsofhiscapsule

screamswerenohingnewaheangelcapsulehoelheycame,inallheirharrowingvariey,inhemiddleofhenighorinbroaddaylighheoccupanshadlearnedoreadmeaninginhediscordansoundsandoblockhemouoverhecourseofhisuninenionallyprolongedsay,caldwellhadheardhemallhecriesofdesperaion,howlsofpain,hearrendingsoundsofgrownmencryinginheirsleepandhedepravedshriekingofderangedmenbroughoheendofheirehersomeimesheonsughwasrelenless,hedecibelsseepinghroughheporesofhepsicwallshehadinawakeliseningohenonsensicalmueringsofmenalkinginheirsleep,hegrunsandexhaionsofalcoholicsrelievinghemselveswihinhesiflingcocoonsofheirowncapsuleshefoundihardodecipherhemeaningofhisownscreamsamidsallhewailingandgnashingofeeh

oday,caldwellfelasrangehypersensiiviyhewasacuelyawareofhesweasoakedsheesclingingohisnakedperspiringorsolikeashroud,heminuemovemensofhehermoreguingfabricsysemaicallyadjusingisweavecaldwellwonderedwheherhissensiiviyoexernalsimuliwasasideeffecofhimhavingmadehemoscowardlyofpersonalchoiceshesillhadn’broughhimselfoconempehefinaliyofhisdecisionbuheconclusionwasineviableevenually,inamaerofminues,hehough,hewasgoingokillhimself

soon,heendwouldbeinsighforhisheavilypuncuaedsleeppaernshenighmareshasrechedinoinfiniy,ghoslyappariionsoffearreachingdeepinohispsychehewasrappedinalivinghelndherewasonlyonewayousoon,hewouldhavehawhichhecravedmorehananyhingelse,asleephasrechedundisurbedinoinfiniyhewouldhavepeace

caldwellgncedaheimeprojecedinpalegreenpixelsbyhecheapaiwaneseclockbuilinoheceilinghroughburnedoueyes,ormenedmindmoribundinhafuzzyareabeweensleepandwakefulness,hewachedhepulsaingdigisofheclockickingoveriwashahourofdawnouside,heshadowsofhenighhadsaredorecede,exposinghegraywerealiyofawinermorningheyineronhememoryfoamfuonandwachedheimespinonisinvisibleaxis,sweepinghroughishreehundredandsixydegreearcinpreciselysixysecondsiwas530am

imehadbeeameaninglessconcepocaldwell,reducedoasimplebiologicalcouningdown,heunsoppableapproachofanimpendingexpirydaehefoundsleepelusive,hisexisencereducedounoldhoursofwakefulnessfollowedbya

oyingsrechesofinsomniasomeimeshewouldgodayswihousleep,areivelyrecenafflicionhaheconcludedwassubconsciouslybroughonbyadesperaeaempoavoidbeingplungedbackinoanoherinerminablesequenceofhorrificdreamswhensleepcameevenually,henighmareswouldbeginalloveragain,hegroesquesoryboardsunfurlingwihevenmoreinensiyhenhe’dwakeupscreaming,heimeprojecedfromheclockhisonlybeaconorealiy,couningdownohisimpendingdeah

hemorehehoughaboui,hemorehedecisionoakehisownlifeseemedomakesenseandoday,whichhappenedobehiswenyeighhbirhday,wasasgoodaimeasanyherewasnohingocelebrae,onlyheencroachingshadowofdeahiwasn’adecisionhahadeeasilycaldwellsuspecedhahedecisionmakingprocesshadbeeninmoionforquiesomeime,firingawaydeepwihinhissynapseshe’dbeenconsideringiaasubconsciouslevel,surrepiiouslyweighingheconsandpros

allhingsbeingequal,suicideseemedobehemossensiblepahoakeiwasapahwellroddenhecouldnogoonanylongerhisrecenripohebckzoneofoval,whichhe’dakenwhileenvelopedinarealiydisorionfieldofhisownmaking,wasconfirmaionenoughhahe’dbeenconempingiforawhilehisimpendingsuicidewaspremediaedandnoaspurofhemomenhingashe’driedohavehimselfbelieve

caldwellhoughabouheendlessnighslyingonhefuonsaringinospace,heburningpixelsofpornogramsechingglyphsonhiseyeballsashememoriesdrifedawayandheimagesfaded,andhisimpendingsuicidecamebackinofocus,caldwellfoundhimselfsaringinoheswirlingbckholehawashisdepressionadepressionhawashecumuivesumofawholelianyofmisforunes,someofwhichheconcludedhewouldneverundersandhewonderedhowhislifehaddegeneraedinohiscwingmiasmaofrawunfulfilledneed

caldwellyineronhefuonwachinghegreenpseudoquarzofhecapsuleimerusherinhisdemisehiseyesshifedohelcdpanelseinohepsicceilinghesighofhebacklidigisofhesunisofhiscredidisappearinginoheeherfilledhimwihasrangesenseofeuphoriahiswouldbehisscapsulehoeljusafewminuesnowandiwouldallbeoverhereassuredhimselfinsincively,hiseyesmovedoheransparenbckvialsiingonhecigareescaldedpsicshelfhepoisonhe’dacquiredfromhewhiehairedgeorgianinhesyringescaeredbackalleysofoval

caldwellwonderedwheherhehackersonhehackerundergroundboard,hehub,wouldmisshimhehubwasajobboardandmuniyincyberspace,ahackingworkhouse,gridironandcredisourceforcounlessunionhackersandbyeboysfromvie

aovdivosokscoresgleanedfromhehubhadkepcaldwellinchernobylchickenandpizzaforeigheenmonhshevasmajoriyofhedealshadefromamyseriousprocurerhiddenbehindaworkoffirewallsandlowlevelinruderdeecionaissoinricaehaheyhadobelongoamajorconglomeraewihsomehingohide

hewordonhehub,iselfadynamicpieceofmuniycodedrifinghroughcyberspace,washahebuyerwassomeoneonopofhefoodchainofamajoryakuzaconrolledzaibasuinhisbusiness,youdidn’askquesionsiwashardenoughgeinginohehub’si

ercircleandonceyouwerehere,youdidyourdamnedesosayherehameanreceivingyourelecronicbriefinganddeliveringheservice,endofsoryyoukepyourmouhshuandisayedshuevenaferhecrediransacionookpcenoquesions

caldwellhadmadealivingridingheconsolesofheunion’scapsulehoelsunilrecenly,hehadneversayedinonepcelongerhanacoupleofweeksaaimehiscurrencapsulewasheonlyexcepion,enweeksinhesamecusrophobicsarcophagus,heckofworkflowandcredigoinghandinhandwihhiscurrensaeofsasishepurposeofhisnomadiclifesylehadbeenbohosayconinuallyshroudedbeneahacloakofanonymiyandoavoidformingemoionaachmensopcesorpeople

hehadhisinernarmclockhaoldhimwheniwasimeomoveonhelisenedforidaily,hafrayingofhenerveshasignaledhaachangeofenvironmenwasimminenoherwise,hewoulddeerioraerapidlyinoanervouswreck,incapableofdoinganyhingoherhancwahepsicwallsofhiscapsuleanddrivehimselfapoplecicwihselfloahingsomeimesiwasjusheohercapsulejockeysbeingfriendly,onherareoccasionshaheacuallyvenuredousideonaoilerun,whichsehearmbellsringing

hisworkonhehubhadboughhimacerainlevelofnoorieyandamodesamounofcredihaallowedhimoekeouanexisenceinhedigialfloaingworldofmercialhacking,whileconsanlymaneuveringosaybelowheradarofheevershrinkinglegaldomainsofheunionhebckmarkesweregrowingfas,spreadinglikesomenewfangleddisease,forcingheauhoriiesoresorodesperaemeasuresoreigninheescaingcrimeandpuasopoheshadyrackesofsubversiveypes

overheswomonhsaninexplicablesasishadakenholdofhemarke,aleasasfarascaldwellwasconcernedhehadgonemorehaneighweekswihoundingajob,afachahearibuedohehighlypublicizedfailureofhisaemporerieveheprivaebankingclienlisfromasumiomobankdaabasesomeoneouherehadavendeaagainshimandheyhadusedhefreeflowingdaaofcyberspaceosackhecardsagainshimwhy?caldwellhadnoidea

hehadbeenparofhei

ercircleofaighringofanonymoushackersaroundheworldhageneraedmosofhehub’sbusinesshe’dprovenhimselfoverhemonhswihincreasinglyourageousbreachesofhedaabanksofmajorcorporaionsheownerofhehubwhowenbyhenicknameofglyphookasmallcuofeachscoresuddenlycaldwellhadbeendisco

ecedfromhedealflowandfromhei

ercycle,reducedoalivewireofdepressionsaringbnklyaanempymandlinehackerswerebornohack,yecaldwellwashardwiredohackonlyondemandashedealsdriedup,caldwell’senhusiasmforhegamewiheredhewasnolongerurnedonbyheacplishmenofpromisingasecuresysem

failuresweremoninhedigialfloaingworldyouwonsome,youlossomesincehischosenprofessiononlyallowedforahandomouhexisence,caldwell’sexilehadakenisollonhiscredichipandhiswillolivehehadrieddesperaelyoreversehesiuaionbuonoavailhishackingwinerhadseinandallhecoulddowassareahecapsuleerminashissofwareagensreurnedempyhandedsomedidnoreurnaall,havingdiedmyseriousdeahswhilenegoiaingheinricaciesofsuperiorinrusiondeecioncode

ihadakenawhileoreachhecaharicjuncionbuhenowknewwihabsoluecerainyhadeahwasheonlywayouhehadnoknownreives,nobodyogrieveforhimhisonlineassociaeswouldnomisshimforlong,disracedasheywerebyheemergingopporuniiesofarapidlyshapeshifingcyberspacehismemoriesheldnohinghawouldgivehimcauseoregrehisowndeahheysaidhawhenyouwereabouodieyourwholelifefshedbeforeyoureyescaldwellknewhisfshbackswouldbeverybriefinfac,hesuspecedhahemighnohaveanyaall

herewascoldforobegleanedfromheknowledgehahewassoonodisappearinoheeher,permanenlyjerkedinohemarixofhegreabeyondforawhile,hismemorydeficinowihsanding,caldwellhadbelievedfervenlyhaherewassomeunfulfilledpurposeohisexisence,yeundiscoveredfacesofhispoenialandiwashabeliefhahadkephimgoing,kephimco

ecedoheglowingicesofcyberspacefordaysaaimehabeliefhadslowlyandsurelybeenshaeredhewasgoingodieobliviousofhispas,ooscaredofaceadarkanddesoefuure

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