作者:章华
|类型:都市·校园
|更新时间:2019-10-06 11:52
|本章字节:11586字
gonewihhewind
故事开始于美国南北关系非常紧张的1861年。
原来任性的思嘉随着战事的吃紧经历着人生的转折。
苦难的生活磨炼着思嘉,但也使她变得冷酷无情,不
择手段。当她明白她的真爱就在她身边时,为时已晚。
瑞德已经决定弃家出走,永远地离开她。而此刻,对
于思嘉来说,生活中的一切光亮都消失了。她只有回
到塔拉庄园这一条出路。她太累了,再也承受不了这
些压力了。
[美]玛格丽特·米切尔(margaremichell)
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bewilderedfaceshelookedinoheeyessheknewsowell—and
knewsolile—lisenedohisquievoicesayingwordswhich
afirsmeannohinghiswashefirsimehehadeveralked
oherinhisma
er,asonehumanbeingoanoher,alkedas
oherpeoplealked,wihouflippancy,mockeryorriddles
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canloveawoman?lovedyouforyearsbeforeifinallygoyou?during
hewari’dgoawayandryoforgeyou,buicouldn’andi
alwayshadocomebackaferhewaririskedarres,jusocome
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leyouknowiyou’resobrualohosewholoveyou,scarle
youakeheirloveandholdioverheirheadslikeawhip”
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ahefainechoofpassioninhisvoice,pleasureandexciemen
crepbackinohershesa,hardlybreahing,lisening,waiing
“iknewyoudidn’lovemewhen1marriedyouiknew
abouashley,youseebu,foolhaiwas,ihoughicould
makeyoucareugh,ifyoulike,buiwanedoakecareof
you,opeyou,ogiveyoueveryhingyouwanediwanedo
marryyouandproecyouandgiveyouafreereininanyhingha
wouldmakeyouhappy—jusasididbo
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frighened,bullheadedchildihinkyouaresillachildnoone
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wascalmandiredbuherewassomehinginhequaliyofi
haraisedaghosofmemoryinscarle
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ohercrisisofherlifewherehadibeen?hevoiceofaman
facinghimselfandhisworldwihoufeeling,wihouflinching,
wihouhope
why—why—ihadbeenashleyinhewinry,windswep
orchardaara,alkingoflifeandshadowshowswihaired
calmnesshahadmorefinaliyinisimbrehananydesperae
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urnedhercoldwihdreadofhingshecouldnoundersand,so
nowrhe’svoicemadeherhearsinkhisvoice,hisma
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morehanheconenofhiswords,disurbedher,madeher
realizehaherpleasurableexciemenofafewmomensago
hadbeenunimelysomehingwaswrong,badlywrong
whaiwasshedidnoknowbusheliseneddesperaely,
hereyesonhisbrownface,hopingohearwordshawould
dissipaeherfears
“iwassoobvioushaweweremeanforeachoherso
obvioushaiwasheonlymanofyouracquainancewhocould
loveyouaferknowingyouasyoureallyare—hardandgreedy
andunscrupulous,likemeilovedyouandiookhechancei
houghashleywouldfadeouofyourmindbu,”heshrugged,
“iriedeveryhingiknewandnohingworkedandiloved
youso,scarleifyouhadonlyleme,icouldhavelovedyou
asgenlyandasenderlyaseveramanlovedawomanbui
couldn’leyouknow,foriknewyou’dhinkmeweakand
ryousemyloveagainsmeandalways—alwaysherewas
ashleyidrovemecrazyicouldn’siacrossheablefromyou
everynigh,knowingyouwishedashleywassiingherein
mypceandicouldn’holdyouinmyarmsanighandknow
ha—well,idoesn’maernowiwonder,now,whyihur
ha’swhadrovemeobellehereisacerainswinishcomfor
inbeingwihawomanwholovesyouuerlyandrespecsyou
forbeingafinegenleman—evenifsheisanillieraewhorei
soohedmyvaniyyou’veneverbeenverysoohing,mydear”
“oh,rhe”shebegan,miserableaheverymenionof
belle’sname,buhewavedherosilenceandwenon
“andhen,hanighwhenicarriedyouupsairs—ihough—i
hoped—ihopedsomuchiwasafraidofaceyouhenexmorning,
forfeari’dbeenmisakenandyoudidn’lovemeiwassoafraid
you’dughameiwenoffandgodrunkandwhenicame
back,iwasshakinginmyboosandifyouhadcomeevenhalfway
omeeme,hadgivenmesomesign,ihinki’dhavekissedyour
feebuyoudidn’”
“oh,burhe,ididwanyouhenbuyouweresonasy!
ididwanyou!ihink—yes,hamushavebeenwhenifirs
knewicaredabouyouashley—ineverwashappyabouashley
aferha,buyouweresonasyhai—”
“oh,well,”hesaid“iseemswe’vebeenacrosspurposes,
doesn’i?buidoesn’maernowi’monlyellingyou,soyou
won’everwonderabouiallwhenyouweresickandiwasall
myfaul,isoodousideyourdoor,hopingyou’dcallforme,bu