第31章 飘(1)

作者:章华

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类型:都市·校园

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更新时间:2019-10-06 11:52

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gonewihhewind


故事开始于美国南北关系非常紧张的1861年。


原来任性的思嘉随着战事的吃紧经历着人生的转折。


苦难的生活磨炼着思嘉,但也使她变得冷酷无情,不


择手段。当她明白她的真爱就在她身边时,为时已晚。


瑞德已经决定弃家出走,永远地离开她。而此刻,对


于思嘉来说,生活中的一切光亮都消失了。她只有回


到塔拉庄园这一条出路。她太累了,再也承受不了这


些压力了。


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canloveawoman?lovedyouforyearsbeforeifinallygoyou?during


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youakeheirloveandholdioverheirheadslikeawhip”


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“iknewyoudidn’lovemewhen1marriedyouiknew


abouashley,youseebu,foolhaiwas,ihoughicould


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haraisedaghosofmemoryinscarle


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facinghimselfandhisworldwihoufeeling,wihouflinching,


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realizehaherpleasurableexciemenofafewmomensago


hadbeenunimelysomehingwaswrong,badlywrong


whaiwasshedidnoknowbusheliseneddesperaely,


hereyesonhisbrownface,hopingohearwordshawould


dissipaeherfears


“iwassoobvioushaweweremeanforeachoherso


obvioushaiwasheonlymanofyouracquainancewhocould


loveyouaferknowingyouasyoureallyare—hardandgreedy


andunscrupulous,likemeilovedyouandiookhechancei


houghashleywouldfadeouofyourmindbu,”heshrugged,


“iriedeveryhingiknewandnohingworkedandiloved


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couldn’leyouknow,foriknewyou’dhinkmeweakand


ryousemyloveagainsmeandalways—alwaysherewas


ashleyidrovemecrazyicouldn’siacrossheablefromyou


everynigh,knowingyouwishedashleywassiingherein


mypceandicouldn’holdyouinmyarmsanighandknow


ha—well,idoesn’maernowiwonder,now,whyihur


ha’swhadrovemeobellehereisacerainswinishcomfor


inbeingwihawomanwholovesyouuerlyandrespecsyou


forbeingafinegenleman—evenifsheisanillieraewhorei


soohedmyvaniyyou’veneverbeenverysoohing,mydear”


“oh,rhe”shebegan,miserableaheverymenionof


belle’sname,buhewavedherosilenceandwenon


“andhen,hanighwhenicarriedyouupsairs—ihough—i


hoped—ihopedsomuchiwasafraidofaceyouhenexmorning,


forfeari’dbeenmisakenandyoudidn’lovemeiwassoafraid


you’dughameiwenoffandgodrunkandwhenicame


back,iwasshakinginmyboosandifyouhadcomeevenhalfway


omeeme,hadgivenmesomesign,ihinki’dhavekissedyour


feebuyoudidn’”


“oh,burhe,ididwanyouhenbuyouweresonasy!


ididwanyou!ihink—yes,hamushavebeenwhenifirs


knewicaredabouyouashley—ineverwashappyabouashley


aferha,buyouweresonasyhai—”


“oh,well,”hesaid“iseemswe’vebeenacrosspurposes,


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myfaul,isoodousideyourdoor,hopingyou’dcallforme,bu