作者:章华
|类型:都市·校园
|更新时间:2019-10-06 11:52
|本章字节:10324字
leerfromanunknownwoman
《一个陌生女人的来信》是一个对爱情忠贞不贰
的痴情少女的绝笔。一个十三岁的少女喜欢上了她的
邻居——一个青年作家,而她由于母亲的再婚不得不
离开这里。五年后她重返维也纳,每天到他窗下等候,
一心只想委身于他。直到他俩的爱情结晶得病夭折,
她自己也身患重病即将辞世,才写下这封没有具名的
长信。
[奥地利]斯蒂芬·茨威格(sephaniweig)
youookmeinyourarmsagainisayedwihyouforhe
wholeofonegloriousnighbuevenhenyoudidnorecognise
mewhileihrilledoyourcaresses,iwaspinomeha
yourpassionknewnodifferencebeweenalovingmisress
andamererix,hayourspendhrifaffecionswerewholly
concenraedinheirownexpressionome,hesranger
pickedupaadancinghall,youwereaonceaffecionaeand
coureousyouwouldnoreamelighly,andyeyouwere
fullofanenhrallingardourdizzywihheoldhappiness,iwas
againawareofhewosidednessofyournaure,ofhasrange
minglingofinellecualpassionwihsensual,whichhadalready
ensvedmeoyouinmychildhoodinnoohermanhavei
everknownsuchcompleesurrenderohesweenessofhe
momennooherhasforheimebeinggivenhimselfsouerly
asdidyouwho,whenhehourwaspas,wereorepseinoan
inerminableandalmosinhumanforgefulnessbui,oo,forgo
myselfwhowasi,lyinginhedarknessbesideyou?wasihe
impassionedchildofformerdays;wasihemoherofyourson;
wasiasranger?everyhinginhiswonderfulnighwasaone
andhesameimeenrancinglyfamiliarandenrancinglynewi
prayedhahejoymighsforever
bumorningcameiwasewhenwerose,andyouasked
meosayobreakfasoverheea,whichanunseenhandhad
discreelyservedinhediningroom,wealkedquielyasof
old,youdispyedacordialfrankness;and,asofold,herewere
noaclessquesions,herewasnocuriosiyaboumyselfyou
didnoaskmyname,norwhereilivedoyouiwas,asbefore,
acasualadvenure,anamelesswoman,anardenhourwhich
leavesnoracewheniisoveryouoldmehayouwereabou
osaronalongjourney,hayouweregoingospendwoor
hreemonhsinnorhernafricahewordsbrokeinuponmy
happinesslikeaknell:“pas,pas,pasandforgoen!”ilonged
ohrowmyselfayourfee,crying,“akemewihyou,hayou
mayalenghcameoknowme,alenghaferallheseyears!”
buiwasimid,cowardly,svish,weakallicouldsaywas,“wha
apiy”youlookedamewihasmile,“areyoureallysorry?”
foramomeniwasasiffrenziedisoodupandlooked
ayoufixedlyhenisaid,“hemanilovehasalwaysgoneon
ajourney”ilookedyousraighinheeyes“now,now,”i
hough,“nowhewillrecogniseme!”youonlysmiled,andsaid
consolingly,“onecomesbackaferaime”ianswered,“yes,
onecomesback,buonehasforgoenbyhen”
imushavespokenwihsrongfeeling,formyonemoved
youyou,oo,rose,andlookedamewonderinglyandenderly
youpuyourhandsonmyshoulders,“goodhingsareno
forgoen,andishallnoforgeyou”youreyessudiedme
aenively,asifyouwishedoformanenduringimageofmein
yourmindwhenifelhisperainggnce,hisexploraion
ofmywholebeing,icouldnobufancyhahespellofyour
blindnesswouldasbebroken“hewillrecogniseme!hewill
recogniseme!”mysoulrembledwihexpecaion
buyoudidnorecognisemeno,youdidnorecognise
meneverhadibeenmoreofasrangeroyouhaniwasaha
momen,forhadibeenoherwiseyoucouldnopossiblyhave
donewhayoudidafewminueseryouhadkissedmeagain,
hadkissedmepassionaelymyhairhadbeenruffled,andihad
oidyioncemoresandingahegss,isawini—andas
isaw,iwasovercomewihshameandhorror—hayouwere
surrepiiouslyslippingacoupleofbanknoesinomymufficould
hardlyrefrainfromcryingou;icouldhardlyrefrainfromspping
yourfaceyouwerepayingmeforhenighihadspenwihyou,
mewhohadlovedyousincechildhood,mehemoherofyour
sonoyouiwasonlyaprosiuepickedupaadancinghalli
wasnoenoughhayoushouldforgeme;youhadopayme,
andodebasemebydoingso
ihasilygaheredupmybelongings,haimighescapeas
quicklyaspossible;hepainwasoogreailookedroundfor
myhahereiwas,onhewriingable,besidehevasewih
hewhieroses,myrosesihadanirresisibledesireomakea
sefforoawakenyourmemory“willyougivemeoneofyour
whieroses?”“ofcourse,”youanswered,lifinghemallou
ofhevase“buperhapsheyweregivenyoubyawoman,a
。。