第39章 儿子与情人(2)

作者:章华

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类型:都市·校园

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更新时间:2019-10-06 11:52

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本章字节:13140字

heoldhereveryhinghaookpce,everyhingha


wassaidiwasasifshehadbeenhereandhewasdyingo


inroduceherohesenewfriendswhohaddi


erasevenhiry


inheevening


“goalongwihyou!”shesaid“whadoheywanoknow


mefor?”


“heydo!”hecriedindignanly“ifheywanoknow


me—andheysayheydo—henheywanoknowyou,because


youarequieascleverasiam”


“goalongwihyou,child!”sheughed


bushebeganospareherhandshey,oo,wereworkgnarled


nowheskinwasshinywihsomuchhowaer,he


knucklesraherswollenbushebeganobecarefulokeep


hemouofsodasheregreedwhaheyhadbeen—sosmall


andexquisieandwhena


ieinsisedonherhavingmore


sylishblousesosuiherage,shesubmiedsheevenwenso


farasoallowabckvelvebowobepcedonherhairhen


shesniffedinhersarcasicma


er,andwassureshelookeda


sighbushelookedady,pauldecred,asmuchasmrs


majormoreon,andfar,farnicerhefamilywascomingon


onlymorelremainedunchanged,orraher,psedslowly


paulandhismohernowhadlongdiscussionsaboulife


religionwasfadinginohebackgroundhehadshoveledaway


allhebeliefshawouldhamperhim,hadclearedheground,


andcomemoreorlessohebedrockofbeliefhaoneshould


feelinsideoneselfforrighandwrong,andshouldhavehe


paienceograduallyrealizeone’sgodnowlifeineresedhim


more


“youknow,”hesaidohismoher,“idon’wanobelong


ohewellodomiddlecssilikemycommonpeoplebesi


belongohecommonpeople”


“buifanyoneelsesaidso,myson,wouldn’youbeina


earyouknowyouconsideryourselfequaloanygenleman”


“inmyself,”heanswered,”noinmycssormyeducaion


ormyma


ersbuinmyselfiam’


“verywell,henhenwhyalkabouhecommonpeople?”


“because—hedifferencebeweenpeopleisn’inheircss,


buinhemselvesonlyfromhemiddlecssesonegesideas,


andfromhecommonpeople—lifeiself,warmhyoufeelheir


haesandloves”


“i’sallverywell,myboybu,hen,whydon’yougoand


alkoyourfaher’spals?”


“buhey’reraherdifferen”


noaallhey’rehecommonpeopleaferall,whomdoyou


mixwihnow—amonghecommonpeople?hosehaexchange


ideas,likehemiddlecssesheresdon’ineresyou”


“bu—here’shelife—”


“idon’believehere’salomorelifefrommiriamhanyou


couldgefromanyeducaedgirl—saymissmoreon?iisyou


whoaresnobbishaboucss”


shefranklywanedhimoclimbinohemiddlecss,a


hingnoverydifficul,sheknewandshewanedhiminhe


endomarryady


nowshebeganocombahiminhisreslessfreinghesill


kepuphisco


exionwihmiriam,couldneiherbreakfreenor


gohewholelenghofengagemenandhisindecisionseemed


obleedhimofhisenergymoreover,hismohersuspecedhim


ofanunrecognizedleaningowardscra,and,sinceheer


wasamarriedwoman,shewishedhewouldfallinlovewih


oneofhegirlsinabeersaionoflifebuhewassupid,and


wouldrefuseoloveorevenoadmireagirlmuch,jusbecause


shewashissocialsuperior


“myboy,”saidhismoherohim,“allyourcleverness,


yourbreakingawayfromoldhings,andakinglifeinyourown


hands,doesn’seemobringyoumuchhappiness”


“whaishappiness!”hecried“i’snohingome!how


amiobehappy?”


heplumpquesiondisurbedher


“ha’sforyouojudge,mydbuifyoucouldmee


somegoodwomanwhowouldmakeyouhappy—andyoubegan


ohinkofselingyourlife—whenyouhavehemeans—so


hayoucouldworkwihouallhisfreing—iwouldbemuch


beerforyou”


hefrownedhismohercaughhimonherawofhiswound


ofmiriamhepushedheumbledhairoffhisforehead,hiseyes


fullofpainandfire


“youmeaneasy,moher,”hecried“ha’sawoman’s


wholedocrineforlife—easeofsoulandphysicalcomforandido


despisei”


“oh,doyou!”repliedhismoher“anddoyoucallyoursa


divinedisconen?”


“yesidon’careabouisdiviniybudamnyour


happiness!solongaslife’sfull,idoesn’maerwheheri’s


happyornoi’mafraidyourhappinesswouldboreme”


“younevergiveiachance,”shesaidhensuddenlyallher


passionofgriefoverhimbrokeou“buidoesmaer!”she


cried“andyououghobehappy,yououghoryobehappy,


oliveobehappyhowcouldibearohinkyourlifewouldn’


beahappyone!


“yourown’sbeenbadenough,maer,buihasn’lefyou


somuchworseoffhanhefolkwho’vebeenhappierireckon


you’vedonewellandiamhesamearen’iwellenoughoff?”


“you’reno,mysonbale—bale—andsufferi’sabou


allyoudo,asfarasicansee”


“buwhyno,mydear?iellyoui’shebes—”


“iisn’andoneoughobehappy,oneough


byhisimemrsmorelwasremblingviolenlysruggles


ofhiskindofenookpcebeweenherandherson,whenshe


seemedofighforhisverylifeagainshisownwillodiehe


ookherinhisarmsshewasillandpiiful


“nevermind,lile,”hemurmured“solongasyoudon’feel


life’spalryandamiserablebusiness,heresdoesn’maer,


happinessorunhappiness”


shepressedhimoher


“buiwanyouobehappy,”shesaidpaheically


eh,mydear—sayraheryouwanmeolive


mrsmorelfelasifherhearwouldbreakforhimahis


raesheknewhewouldnolivehehadhapoignancareless


nessabouhimself,hisownsuffering,hisownlife,which


isaformofslowsuicideialmosbrokeherhearwihallhe


passionofhersrongnaureshehaedmiriamforhavingin