作者:章华
|类型:都市·校园
|更新时间:2019-10-06 11:52
|本章字节:13140字
heoldhereveryhinghaookpce,everyhingha
wassaidiwasasifshehadbeenhereandhewasdyingo
inroduceherohesenewfriendswhohaddi
erasevenhiry
inheevening
“goalongwihyou!”shesaid“whadoheywanoknow
mefor?”
“heydo!”hecriedindignanly“ifheywanoknow
me—andheysayheydo—henheywanoknowyou,because
youarequieascleverasiam”
“goalongwihyou,child!”sheughed
bushebeganospareherhandshey,oo,wereworkgnarled
nowheskinwasshinywihsomuchhowaer,he
knucklesraherswollenbushebeganobecarefulokeep
hemouofsodasheregreedwhaheyhadbeen—sosmall
andexquisieandwhena
ieinsisedonherhavingmore
sylishblousesosuiherage,shesubmiedsheevenwenso
farasoallowabckvelvebowobepcedonherhairhen
shesniffedinhersarcasicma
er,andwassureshelookeda
sighbushelookedady,pauldecred,asmuchasmrs
majormoreon,andfar,farnicerhefamilywascomingon
onlymorelremainedunchanged,orraher,psedslowly
paulandhismohernowhadlongdiscussionsaboulife
religionwasfadinginohebackgroundhehadshoveledaway
allhebeliefshawouldhamperhim,hadclearedheground,
andcomemoreorlessohebedrockofbeliefhaoneshould
feelinsideoneselfforrighandwrong,andshouldhavehe
paienceograduallyrealizeone’sgodnowlifeineresedhim
more
“youknow,”hesaidohismoher,“idon’wanobelong
ohewellodomiddlecssilikemycommonpeoplebesi
belongohecommonpeople”
“buifanyoneelsesaidso,myson,wouldn’youbeina
earyouknowyouconsideryourselfequaloanygenleman”
“inmyself,”heanswered,”noinmycssormyeducaion
ormyma
ersbuinmyselfiam’
“verywell,henhenwhyalkabouhecommonpeople?”
“because—hedifferencebeweenpeopleisn’inheircss,
buinhemselvesonlyfromhemiddlecssesonegesideas,
andfromhecommonpeople—lifeiself,warmhyoufeelheir
haesandloves”
“i’sallverywell,myboybu,hen,whydon’yougoand
alkoyourfaher’spals?”
“buhey’reraherdifferen”
noaallhey’rehecommonpeopleaferall,whomdoyou
mixwihnow—amonghecommonpeople?hosehaexchange
ideas,likehemiddlecssesheresdon’ineresyou”
“bu—here’shelife—”
“idon’believehere’salomorelifefrommiriamhanyou
couldgefromanyeducaedgirl—saymissmoreon?iisyou
whoaresnobbishaboucss”
shefranklywanedhimoclimbinohemiddlecss,a
hingnoverydifficul,sheknewandshewanedhiminhe
endomarryady
nowshebeganocombahiminhisreslessfreinghesill
kepuphisco
exionwihmiriam,couldneiherbreakfreenor
gohewholelenghofengagemenandhisindecisionseemed
obleedhimofhisenergymoreover,hismohersuspecedhim
ofanunrecognizedleaningowardscra,and,sinceheer
wasamarriedwoman,shewishedhewouldfallinlovewih
oneofhegirlsinabeersaionoflifebuhewassupid,and
wouldrefuseoloveorevenoadmireagirlmuch,jusbecause
shewashissocialsuperior
“myboy,”saidhismoherohim,“allyourcleverness,
yourbreakingawayfromoldhings,andakinglifeinyourown
hands,doesn’seemobringyoumuchhappiness”
“whaishappiness!”hecried“i’snohingome!how
amiobehappy?”
heplumpquesiondisurbedher
“ha’sforyouojudge,mydbuifyoucouldmee
somegoodwomanwhowouldmakeyouhappy—andyoubegan
ohinkofselingyourlife—whenyouhavehemeans—so
hayoucouldworkwihouallhisfreing—iwouldbemuch
beerforyou”
hefrownedhismohercaughhimonherawofhiswound
ofmiriamhepushedheumbledhairoffhisforehead,hiseyes
fullofpainandfire
“youmeaneasy,moher,”hecried“ha’sawoman’s
wholedocrineforlife—easeofsoulandphysicalcomforandido
despisei”
“oh,doyou!”repliedhismoher“anddoyoucallyoursa
divinedisconen?”
“yesidon’careabouisdiviniybudamnyour
happiness!solongaslife’sfull,idoesn’maerwheheri’s
happyornoi’mafraidyourhappinesswouldboreme”
“younevergiveiachance,”shesaidhensuddenlyallher
passionofgriefoverhimbrokeou“buidoesmaer!”she
cried“andyououghobehappy,yououghoryobehappy,
oliveobehappyhowcouldibearohinkyourlifewouldn’
beahappyone!
“yourown’sbeenbadenough,maer,buihasn’lefyou
somuchworseoffhanhefolkwho’vebeenhappierireckon
you’vedonewellandiamhesamearen’iwellenoughoff?”
“you’reno,mysonbale—bale—andsufferi’sabou
allyoudo,asfarasicansee”
“buwhyno,mydear?iellyoui’shebes—”
“iisn’andoneoughobehappy,oneough
byhisimemrsmorelwasremblingviolenlysruggles
ofhiskindofenookpcebeweenherandherson,whenshe
seemedofighforhisverylifeagainshisownwillodiehe
ookherinhisarmsshewasillandpiiful
“nevermind,lile,”hemurmured“solongasyoudon’feel
life’spalryandamiserablebusiness,heresdoesn’maer,
happinessorunhappiness”
shepressedhimoher
“buiwanyouobehappy,”shesaidpaheically
eh,mydear—sayraheryouwanmeolive
mrsmorelfelasifherhearwouldbreakforhimahis
raesheknewhewouldnolivehehadhapoignancareless
nessabouhimself,hisownsuffering,hisownlife,which
isaformofslowsuicideialmosbrokeherhearwihallhe
passionofhersrongnaureshehaedmiriamforhavingin